its amazing.....
...how i fell in love with him.
..that we were an item, even if it was just for a while.
..he became one of the most important people in my life.
..both of us thought it'll last forever.
..he should be suspicious of me cheating on him in NS
..i was the one who always had to give in.
..you didnt want to let me go when i decided the relationship is over.
..i survived the break up without going absolutely crazy...
and its even more amazing that... we're still great friends after it all. i'm glad i'm moving on with life. i was stuck in between worlds... now i've found my way back. encouraging me to love once again shows you still care as a genuine friend. we've come a long way...
its starting all over again. when i thought, "things are settling just great now. i can live a normal college life - study, sports, friends, date and a part-time job" . sadly, i'm unlike other people, need to rush to the office, meet clients and other company obligations. but right now, as more problems emerge ... i've decided to take it all on and solve it. putting all others at hold.
maybe after that, i'll be free to be who i want to be, and how i want to live my life. but right now, i'll bear with the responsibilities and stress. in three years, i hope it'll finally be over. to be able to walk out that door. to see the sunlight and not regret being in the darkness.
quote from Ben's favourite author : "i have loved, and have been loved, in the end, that's all that matters."
