fussy, i noe.

i'm not sorry at all that i said no to him. but i'm saddened that we're no longer good friends like before. despite many commenting me cruel for leading him on, i'll stand my ground. i refuse to give up my single-dom for a guy deemed below-par. maybe it is slightly unfair la when he is often compared to the guy of my dreams.

in a way, i wasnt reli into him. i liked him. at the last minute, i suddenly realised the difference between like crush lust and love. i admit it was just like. i didnt love him.

i dun care if i have to wage war between those who stand for him. why do u ppl have to butt into my business? this is between me. and him. but currently, its more of me refusing to talk to him cuz i know myself better than anyone else. i cant talk to him now. i'll explode if i do. pretty sure that i'll start shooting him. depends on the location and situation. AND my mood. haha~

and oddly, most of my KL frens hv seen that fugly part of me. none of my college mates here in KK have. i've got the knack of controlling my temper very well now. to the point, the majority of my frens think i'm soooo nice and hardly hv a problem with my temper! haha! amazing.

i'm enjoying my life now. too much i admit. i dun need a permanent guy( aka boyfren) now. *sighs in relief and contentment* i dont have to worry about his feelings and alway allocate some time amidst my hectic schedule for him. for now, having fun socializing( more like fishing for potential guys...just for the fun tho) and gaining life experiences by working with parents and by being a part-time tutor.

i'm fussy. but i noe wad i want. and i want it the way i like it. xp