right now...

It’s really hard to explain it but yes, I’m still gonna try telling ya’ll why I’m so darned happy!!!

dun u just love this pic? >;)

Ever since I moved back here(kk), I didn’t attend church. No doubt that I still read the bible and sing His praises nearly everyday but still felt it wasn’t enough. I felt so bad and guilty. I disregarded that feeling for a WHOLE year for the sake of SPM and I guess I’ve paid the price of putting education first rather than to God-first.

Finally, I attended the mandarin service with my good college friend, Christy and I felt a lot better. I apologized and thanked God over and over again. I felt free and renewed. And the pastor spoke about living the word and I noticed how much I missed these spiritual nourishment. Haha! I was lost about half the time due to the fact that I hardly am familiar with such high class mandarin! Still! I was able to read most of the notes and caught bits and pieces! OHMIGOSH! I was pretty proud of myself on being able to read and understand Chinese after years of being a called a banana or an ABC! Hahah! I saw another familiar face in that church too – Zavier. ;) impressive drummer! Very interesting character. So yeah… am still very happy about going to church. Hopefully I’ll be able to just keep going. Haha!

I’m losing out on juggling college, work and family life altogether. I have this urge to just scream and say “ I quit! Not gonna work for you anymore!” but responsibility has gotten me all tied up so I just continue working for my parent’s company. And as for Saturdays, its pure joy tutoring those lil monsters in English classes. College work is piling up a bit too fast for my snail rate….hehe! and as for family life? well, there’s not much left of it. Mandy has gone to KL to study Physiotherapy. Eldest sister is also in KL studying psychology. So there is only mom, lil sis and me left at home. Where as dad comes down in the weekends. Haihs…

Still am crushing on that guy. I told Christy : “ I think I’ve got a crush on that guy la” and she gave me a look and muttered : “crush? Whats that?” I cant help but laugh : “its more than like, less than love.” “ Ooo… admire/ an lien laa!” “yeah~ *grins*” so far, only the three of us gurlies know about who he really is… two has made me bets! Hahaha! how hilarious… sushi and being slave-driver is on the line! I’m hoping I win though… I might lose on the sushi but heck… I gain the fello~ but then…petrol is getting a bit too pricey! Choices choices! I got a new bag and shades! A blue Roxy bag and a Vincci black shades! Wheee~ I’ll be skipping on two tests on both Saturdays because I’ve got my tutoring class! Heheh! So I get to take it earlier or later… I hate skipping work… gar.. .gottago… am worried about Benniemaroo…but aren’t I always? Muax ya’ll!

i'm into it...oopz- HIM!

i hate people who use the word - ' i love you' extensively. believe me. its like the person is trying to reassure himself rather than to proclaim their undying love to their partners. they say it to their partner, to their best friends, to their pets, to their sibling , on the net and even on their books! PDA is orite wit me but plz dun go overboard and make us NORMAL people cringe everytime we hear u say it to ur partner,see u kiss explicitly in public,groping or write it on walls and doors! the words are getting cheap.

and why o why? did i think that getting posts in college is just like in high school where most of the work is simple and in the end, we get high grades nearly effortlessly! here i am struggling with three posts - president, vice secretary and assistant course representative on the very first term of college! ARGH! what is this? i have to apply to use a classroom a week before?! agreement/recommendation from advisors first!? and i have to distribute the credit hours to members?! i cant hog it all to myself!? wad if i reli want to work my butt off? wad happens then? all for nothing? crazy la....

i'm in the same class as him...so EVERYDAY i see him...talk to him.....same group with him in one of the projects... yet... OMG! this is nearly the same way i meet the KL guy long ago! but i gotta admit... that love for him is slowly diminishing. i know it sounds crazy but it has been six years... so i think it has got to go one day or another right? maybe this guy right here in my college is sumone better? he has everything and a lil bit more than the previous one. great Christian, attractive personality, studious and i love it when he is sleepy! so blur and the look is sooo cute la! OKOK! enuff details! haha

i know studies is very important! *rolls eyes with a grin* but can u blame this heart? who yearns for so much more than what its getting now... there is so many things about the guy that just never cease to mesmerize me... his passion for Christ, his caring sensitive ways, knows how to have fun, great help in studies, gee wheez... he's got sexy hair n shoulders! hahha! orite~! thats all the details for now. ;)

lotsa misses!

in dependence is fun. though i gotta admit i havent got the whole package from my parents but at least i'm getting there. now the last step in achieving the highest possible level of independence right here in KK is to live outside the my parent's home. the best bit? i have the perfect place to live as well as a decent reason. my dad has got a semi-D which he gave me to manage as a project! nyahaha! now i've got the idea to rent it out to college students who have financial problems. do i sound evil or sympathetic? actually i'm trying to be both yet its just me trying to help others out. i'm renting it out at dirt cheap price with rooms completed with airconditioning, beds, built in cupboards, streamyx, astro and transportation. plus its situated in the middle of two China towns! all this for?

get ready for the pricing! TA DAA! RM250! thats it. nuthin else! hehehe! i'm crazy. but at l;east i'm happy right? muahahah! now all i have to do is watch the progression of the minor renovations and think of the best possible way to break it to my father. mom is cool with me living outta the house. no surprise there. we both understand why it might be for the best. or the world would just have to keep putting up with sudden scream and screeches in the middle of the night. havent been online for sooo long.

its like being on drugs after five years on hold! NO i dun do drugs! never will. hmm... it was just me describing the estactically high feeling i am feeling now. crazy isnt it?

miss my online buddies as well as my kl frens. i'll be back soon! wheee thats all i reli am looking forward now. i bought two sets of tickets back to KL. its like a back up plan! hahaha! so if i miss the one ine...well, i shudnt say when i'm going back. heheh! i might jsut go PEEKABOOO in front of ya!

i got three invites to a date thus far this week. am feeling good. watched transformers. it rocked my toe-varnish off! so obviously my socks have been rocked off too. hahahah! miss crapping sesssion! eh! i had one last night with maggot but... aww... cheer up kay? glad i was able to help even if it was a teenie weenie bit. dun lie to me if i didnt cheer u up kay? just say it next time. all the best to ya'all. college life has got alot of me getting used to. taaaa!