roughly sums up my mood now
unconsciously... i think i'm just trying to NOT think about depressing stuff la. got lots of things going on... sure, everyone goes thru alot of things. i just dun think its the same and maybe i'm not that good in handling loads of problems at the same time.
oddly... when u're hit with one problem... suddenly, MORE will come right after that! argh... i just hate it. i hate it when a small petty problem which shudnt trouble me much becomes a big annoying one even when i dun bother or meddle with it. it feels odd to me that friends ask soo much questions about my frenship wit this particular male collegemate. WAD DOES IT HAF TO DO WITH U??? nothing right? you're not my best/good/close fren? no? so go away! i dun need another nosey dodo in my business. i had enuff of those.
so wad if i looked as tho i fell in love with him jsut a few months ago? do i look like i like him now? ever considered that maybe it was his fault that in the end i refuse to accept him as 'more than just frens' ? he asked for a chance! i was given an OPTION - yes or no . i opted NO! and the whole world suddenly thinks i'm sum evil mighty witch flying on my broomstick, cackling and throwing frogs at whim n fancy! garrrr...
as of now... i found another small group of frens. yes.. i'm those who find frens based on my moods and current needs. right now, my priorities or qualities i want in a fren is fun. funny. no stress. as simple as that.
which brings me to another problem, i was in love all along with the same guy. maybe i forgot or... purposely 'buried' him? i went out with other guys and found them...unsatisfactory... i guess i've just answered alot of questions with one lil sentence. heh.
no more complication needed in my life. i need a holiday soon.... or shopping! if not, heck! bring me out fer a stiff drink now.
