sudden curiosity?!

Which Hero Are You?

My Result: Niki Sanders

You know you're one tough cookie. But people really adore you for your soft side. Of course you can take care of yourself, but you also make sure to take care of those around you, and, hey, you always look good doing it!

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thx Ben...appreciate it loads... for your opinions back in ur blog . i mean... u noe i reli need straight to the point kinda views. if not i'll torture myself/you/other people with those loose-ends. " wad if? does tht mean..? no...yes...maybe" and Ben? i think its great i hv a old fahioned, retro and classic best fren like u la! hahah! it just might be the best lurve advisor to go to~ haha! i might be laughing but reli, i'm serious. gotta admit... yes, i've only known him for about five months in college... but meeting this guy under various situations made me able to view him in so many angles. not just physically,mind u. hahah! but i'll take ur advise : "if you two are really so meant for each other, MFEO, then why rush?"

with Ben being SUDDENLY hit by this serious urge of curiosity= wanting to know how others perceive him! i mean, i was like : " HEY! i've been trying to write a post like that for years! " but sumhow it just cudnt be materialised in just ONE post. i had several consecutive posts just to sum up wad i wanted to say! and he did it in...two hours?!

it still amazes me... how i am perceived by him (Ben, i mean)

• witty, intellectual, fun, independent, influential, sober and deep, yet look good at the same time

i wud usually agree tht inside the cold hard devilish exterior is reli a warm fuzzy granny. haha! does tht sound bad?

its still very odd to hear people telling you that you're..

• so mature, all rounded (huh? character wise or physically? heehee), understanding, and reliable.

mature?! then u dun reli noe me well, crapping is one of my expertise~ laughing is my precious asset....

wad i've accepted thus far are,

• independent,mature,giggly,talkative,crazy,aunt agony...gosh...

but believe it or not... i'm just not satisfied. i'm happy with the answers i've got. but surprisingly, i'm not content. yes... i still dream of world domination. yes... in my dreams i'm Hitler the 2nd(female version) thank u thank u~ all hail Her!

from one of my smses to an old fren last night ----> " i'm getting tired of being strong and independent all the time..." that was me trying to say, maybe i dun hv to face the world alone all the time

i believe i've come a looong way since high skewl. its been nearly a year. and most of my high school friends have said tht i've changed so much. so yea. i believe that too.

i've broken up with my first serious relationship right after NS. NS itself was sumthing tht made me grow up real fast. i worked in Starbucks and started college. and all the while, i worked for my parent's company. driving also taught me to be more responsible... then i fell in love again. it made me learn sumthing new everyday.

i spoke to a friend just this afternoon... he asked why i was silently loving the guy i fell for in college? i simply replied : i dunno. then he said sumthing like : scared tat u and him won't be as close as before after u tell him tat u like him..or scared that he'll keep his distance? it got me thinking for a while and i agreed to both and added : afraid of him taking it for granted.

first cut is the deepest. now i know. i shudnt have ventured into a relationship so soon. yet i cant help but want to try it out again. will this guy be different? or is he going to be just like the rest? maybe i am the coward for not wanting to tell the guy... maybe i still think its not the gurly thing to do. yet i do believe kai might scoff and think otherwise! haha!

i was hoping sumone wud gimme another kinda answer or solution to my question : wad do i do? it still mine and my move alone to determine things.... the guy seems to know so well tht i'm into him. yet he doesnt want to do anything... continues being the same fella as before. i think i'll walk away really soon. please, please end this madness.... soon.

here's to you!

shouts for JOY! WOoOoT!!!! *party style, please~*

i'm like a proud momma ya'all! hahah! my son has...*coughcoughvomits* oopzie~actually...my best buddy Benjamin/Kai scored near PERFECT scores for his college presentation! SO PROUD OF YOU LA! i've seen and am still convinced of your ability and passion since form 2! i think this is when i can say, I TOLD YOU SO! i told you that u were a gazzilllllion times better than i am! hahaha!

A TOAST TO MARTIN LUTHER KING THE 2ND! *drumrolls plz!* BENJAMIN kAI ~! tis an honour, my fren! Congrats! keep it up yo~!

"they also agree with me that a person that isn't exposed to stress occasionally or on an often basis, might find themselves unable to cope with stress and end up breaking down easily. and apparently, Charlotte Fong Jia Lerk is a Type A person. hehe." -- quoted from kai http://www.my-quietdrive.blogspot.com/

• Type A
  Strongly motivated and driven am i? didn noe...
  like to compete brint it on!
  enjoys power and recognition heheh~ maybe...
  easily angered/motivated to act too true
  efficient and vigorous no lah!
  dislikes wasting time late for class...does tht count?
  easy going people often frustrates them hell yeah! wads wrong wit them!?
  appear self confident but have strong feelings of self doubt. shhh! tis a secret!

its pretty obvious i LURRRVEEE lil tests like these! and i adore the fact tht Ben is studying psychology now! hehehe! i can get all these lil snippets of information without having to study! and at the same time, i get to learn a lil more about myself. calling me a Hitler-wannabe isnt right ler, Ben! its just a dream...which i intend to realize before i'm 40 though... *evil snigger*

new semester~ GO!

new semester just started... and gosh... i shoulder the full weight of the responsibilities of being the course representative! and being the president of English Language Society! ahhhh! i have the two advisors to the club in silent war at each other as well! ohmigosh! i feel like slapping them both and scream GROW UP LA! i have to get the notes, photostat them, and distribute them. figure out when to hold both formal and informal meetings! gah! the list goes on!

and the start of the new semester makes it harder to look at the guy i fell in love with la... hmm... wad do i do? we're still great friends... we can talk and laugh and hang out for hours but i'm really scared if he or sumone else figures it out. it'll be reli embarassing la... i know i've said that i'm in love with another guy in KL for years... but oddly, i feel the same kinda feeling for this two guys in college as well. one is like my best friend while the other is like a kid brother. now, i have three other guys currently waiting on me... sounds crazy but there are people who scream at me to take either one of the three cuz they're offering everything they have. i guess they're right but think abt it, i'll just feel guilty about wastinf their heart n cash sooner or later. i dun think it would be a total waste if it were the three guys i fell for rather than the three that are interested in me. are u lost? yeah... me too~ i'm trying to sort it out as well~ i'll take my time. heheh!

Labuan - not wat i thot

you can choose to read this LOOOONG blog post to know more abt my Labuan(duty free) hols if you're blessed with 25 hours in a day OR i suggest u click the following link to enjoy a pictorial journey instead ;) enjoy!

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DAY ONE----> i could have died of seasickness..(face turned green). "i'm never going to survive the second trip back on the ship! *SCREAMS*" finally reaching the Labuan International Ferry Terminal... i felt like kissing the cement floor i stood upon! hahaha!

there was this reli kewl christian lady whom we call ching yunjie (as in elder sister ching yun)! she let us stay in her house fer three days and two nights! she has this reli fun and quirky character that i reli wanna get to know her more! but iwas abit shy... hehe! so i let Olivia do all the talking.

i had a wonderful time shopping with Olivia and walking around the lil town! amazingly they have pretty big buildings! hahah! no looking down on 'em no more! met Ronald, Fusion , Jacky and their pastor for dinner! then had an amazing karaoke session wit just Claudia and her sis! hahah! so far so fun! hope it'll be better the next two days here!

day two---->woke up and started the morning walking from one end of the lil town to the other! ouch! i got a BLISTER! argh! bought loads of stuff! aiks... then had lunch with the guys along with Terenz, Sharon and CLaudia. typical KFC moment then we went off to visit Olivia's primary skewl! i didnt join her but went off sightseeing with Terenz n Sharon by car. oO~ pretty place to live la~! visited the Water Sports Centre with loadsa fish! then we had a mini car-race to the bird park. had SO MUCH fun playing with all the birds~ hmm.. i had a sporting n prefessional cameraman too! credits to FUSION!

then the guys went off to play basketball, us gurls went to the beach! woOt! gurls noe how to have serious fun! bought chicken wings and bubu-chacha, ate, bathed and chatted wit Olivia till nine. then i fell asleep till ten when i was woken up to go out 'yam cha' with them again. haha! abit embarrassing that i forgot to get Ronald a card for his birthday, so i wrote a note instead and shared a Tshirt with Olivia. at least he looked surprised and reli appreciative. Happy 19th Bday!

Day 3--->woke up abit late...had to quickly wash up and pack my bag then off to breakfast with another collegemate Esther. she's sumone i meet in school without reli knowing her. but now, with Olivia's extensive connections, i discovered she's a real sweetie. hahah! she brought us to her uncle's shop to buy CHOCOLATES AND BOOZE! DUTY FREEEE + DISCOUNT! swoons in delight! i bought so much chocolates and two bottles of 40% Absolut vodka! i'm going to party hard! muahahah! got on the blasted ferry and forced myself to sleep to avoid seasickness...oddly, i didnt experience the overwhelming sensation anymore! WOOOW! hahah! it wud have been a great trip if it werent for the other passengers who kept whistling, kids kept running about and men who kept laughing. IRRITATING! garrr...

cant stop laughing...

"... the paste which i'm going to apply is actually edible..."

yeaps~ went for a trial mask treatment. and Olivia's mom was reli good at what she does la! and i couldnt stop laughing. i know thats normal but i tried so hard to stop giggling! but the sight of this....

made me laugh like mad.... my collegemate KS was the first to put on the mask made out of sea cucumber,spirulina and cellfood! hahaha! me and Olivia just BURST into laughter! soon the laughing-mania spread to Olivia's mom, lil sister and lil brother! Even funnier was KS trying his best not to laugh while the masking was drying up on his face.

then revenge time! when i had to put on mine~ ohmygosh... i just couldn't stop laughing! it was abit of embarrassment of having green eecky stuff all over ur face and the akwardness of three strangers in the room with us! hahah! they're not strangers la... they were just not reli close... so u'll feel abit shy to look so...*cough* ugly in front of them! hahah!

WAT!? UR KIDDING!?

i've been teaching lil kids for quite some time. i'm not saying that i'm a professional but i believe that when it comes to teaching lil ones---> that person should be genuine, compassionate and darn dedicated WITH CERTAIN QUALIFICATIONS!

kids are known to be really sensitive to what lies deep down in the heart of the adults teaching them. and they innocently pick it up and learn from it. so, if the adult is someone who likes to lie and cheat, well, the kid will see no wrong in following that trait.

this is the reason why i'm writing this post... i just come to know that people WITHOUT decent qualification are employed by international companies in providing quality educational assitance to lil kids... thats just WRONG! i mean, COME ON?! I pay for my lil sister's tuition fee and i dun mind the price as long as i get PROFESSIONAL or at least QUALIFIED guidance for it!

to think that anyone, fresh outta high skewl and WITHOUT EXPERIENCE! and not even attending a teaching seminar, or teaching a class on their own without first having a mentor... is ABSOLUTELY out of question, WRONG! WROOONG!

down memory lane...just for a while

i think i'm falling in love with this place week by week. i'm not going to say day by day, cuz that will be just TOO drama-wama~ heheh! can you believe it? i survived so long in KayKay! haha! the capital of Sabah- Land Below the Wind! here's wad happened so far this year...




Form 5! 2006 ---> i remember the catfights *meoow* , gossips , crazy class antics *singing 'balik kampung' while in add math class* , adrenaline pumping misdemeanour*running out of skewl in the full view of the teachers* and the classical show of competing in examinations all the way till AFTER SPM . heart to heart talk with Ben the whole year thru SPM and the best ,three hour talk in CoffeeBean,KayL. FBC youth camp was fantastic! new year celebration in KayL was just...so touching la... sobz. luv my family n frens back there so much!



National Service (PLKN) 2007----> how i cried on the first night in KEM SRI LEDANG, JOHOR. i knew NO ONE! it was situated at the edge of the forest of gunung Puteri Ledang ... with all that fear, it was so easy for me to turn to my bible for emotional support and i made it a habit to talk to Jesus even more often as i can. i made friends really fast and got into the way of NS life really easily. Thank U, Lord for the blessings U've bestowed and being my walking stick and light upon my path. i've made friends which helped me be the best i can be now, and knowing them is such an honour... love ya'all. i remember being chosen to be on the dancing team with the other eleven- forming Akedemi Sri Ledang(ASL) and loving everyone and everytime we had dance practice for the whole three months! camping in the jungle was super la! lets do it again! and all the charity work? gosh... i miss my group of crazy gurls, and the group of sporty-worms, and most of all, my bro n sisters in Christ! the teachers there were fab too...



Starbucks (Centrepoint) ---> sitting there with my fav cup of coffee and reading TEENmag when my elder sis Mandy dared me to take the ongoing interview of new Baristas for Starbucks on the spot! i shrugged, stood up and did it... totally confident in handling the interview which ended up like old-frens meeting up! chatted and laughed non stop~ and i did it! i won the dare! but... after the call from the store manager confirming my training and job, i began to take the idea of working in KK seriously. honestly, its probably the best three weeks of 2007 (so far la...) and i really am happy with the experience gained and the friends made. to coffee, with love!



'P' driver's license! ----> this is like, ONE STEP CLOSER TO FREEDOM! muahahaha! i just LOVE driving...can u tell? i mean, i've been driving since i was in form 2! i remember the first car i drove was a black cefiro! then a volvo,perdana,volvo and while i lived in KK, a range rover, unser,hilux,royal saloon,vigo, mercedez and my very own wira! kekeke! hoping to upgrade reli soon! hehe!


TARcollege ---> i felt reli out of place among all the lala-fied teens and mandarin-dominated student population. i stuck out like a sore thumb. but i forced myself soooo hard to speak mandarin,then life in college improved so much when classes started. made reli good frens, learnt alot! entertaining lecturers plus.. snooker and gossip buddy, Olivia! my clubbing n music addict partner Evelyn~ thus we formed the C.E.O ... credit goes to our english lecturer Mr.Kenny who uses that abbreviation extensively~ "CEO! you three are late! C! whats your answer? E! stop talking to her! O, what are you doing? sms-ing?" then i'm reli reli glad that my frens brought me back to church... yes, ever since i got back to KK, i sumhow decided to not face the loneliness and awkwardness of making new frens and feeling like an oddball in church so i had an hour of quiet time with God EVERYDAY and had lots of bible studying with my brothers-in-Christ online! its fun actually. now i attend church every Sunday like i used to back in KayL. i feel very very happy coming back to the heart of Worship after all these time. and falling in love all over again... haha! he's sumone well respected, man of few words and very knowledgeable ;) sounds crazy but am trying to forget him cuz its just so not possible. I'M BEING REALISTIC! haha! ask me and i'll tell u y~



so! first term college examinations are over and... the holidays are here! woOt~ but reli... i feel that this isnt reli a holiday, in fact,i'm more busy than when i have college to attend. in the morning, i check on the renovations of the new house, go around town to survey n order supplies, study and determine the interior design of the house, still thinking of the best way to fully utilize the garden... and soon will have to start thinking of the furnitures and decorations. gar... then in the afternoon, i often am left with paperwork in the office but am allowed to use the internet! then on Saturdays, i teach lil kids in a tuition centre. busy bumble bee~