my car blues...

i slept at 4am yesterday... cudnt stop chatting with my friends on MSN and studying on how people actually earn money online. i've heard about it and done it one or twice but... i am a pretty chick. oopz... i mean chicken! i'm absolutely terrified of scams and deepdarkfear of being gunned down by men in black suits with sunglasses. *but they're sooo hot!? swoons*

woke up at eleven in the morning with my lil sister asking if i could send her to skewl so i said yea.. orites. after a bath, i sms-ed my fren while waiting for my mom to get ready to go to the bank. i sent my lil sister with the Toyota Hilux and told my mom, "er.. need to refill la... tank gonna b empty liao~ y korkor dun refill?"

there i was, sitting in the car while my mom was fiddling with the machine n her cards... i sms-ed *omg..isnt that illegal!? shh!* and then i hopped out to help but my mom had already started the pump. so i shrugged and continued sms-ing. i drove towards the highway when... *KLUnK* the engine just died in the middle of the road! my mom shoook her head "i think you still need more practice with a manual car.. tsk tsk!" i tried to start the engine again and said " please la!~ i CAN drive this car without any problems at all!" STILL! the engine would not start! then my mom made a sound and looked at her. " i put in PETROL instead of DIESEL! OMG! I FORGOT! SEI LA SEI LA! lei ge daddy sat ngo lo! *die la die la! your daddy gonna kill me"*

perfect~ we sat there until my stepbrother and the mechanic to save us in the middle of the highway, causing massive traffic jam. o wells~ at least i get to skip on alot of work then eh?

got home and chatted with a collegemate whom i hardly get the chance to speak to. it turned out not as i expected. :) it was a very good chat. showed alot of character and ... understanding. i see a different side of that person. NO BENJAMIN! its not that same person! NO!

wad i'll do this hols

NO MORE PENCILS, NO MORE BOOKS!

NO MORE TEACHERS BORING LOOKS!

hahaha! thats really how i kept singing after the exams in my evil lil head! FREEEDOOOM! right after the last EXAM paper, we took off to ASIA CITY to skate~ on the way to town, it started raining so very heavily! so i was forced to slow down with all my gurlfrens shireking at me to slow down. *grumbles* i saw the guy i really like at the rink and well, yeah, i become a tad reluctant to go skating then. lots of collegemates started persuading and i was like, " ah! why?! lazy la.. ah...okie la! u pay! hehe"

about half an hour of having friends struggling around in their skates and constant shireking, most of us were happily zipping around the rink. then my eldest sister sms-ed me saying my grandpa is coming down from my dad's farm and wants dinner together! argh.... i had to leave with Olivia. am glad Olivia had enuff of skating already if not i'll feel really bad in cutting her fun short. hehe! my grandfather is just sooo in love with my dad's farm! hahah! he was so excited before going there and now that he's back, he's so dead tired but always all smiles! hahah! he wasnt able to take any pictures cuz he forgot to set the camera to automatic mode instead of taking short video clips! so he had loads of short video clips! hahahahha!

being the project manager, for the new house which dad just bought, is not as easy! argh! i've got to wake up every morning to start the day by opening the balance of the supplies, supervise the workers at the start of the day, contact suppliers and restock. then there is the office which i work as a temporary secretary for my parent's company in the afternoon. and finally, on saturdays, i have my favourite job of the three jobs! TUTORING! lil kids! heheh! well, i'm not stating how much i earn from the three jobs but for honest hardwork, heck! i'm underpaid! yet, its better than not being paid la... HAHAHAH! its enough for me to pay for college life on my own. so yea... i'm grateful for now. hehehe.

what do i do? it sounds crazy... i fell in love with this guy(A) in college. we're nothing but really good friends. not that its bad or anything, but i cant help but feel so sad that A will always treat me as a good fren or 'little sister'. then the other guys who i'm not interested in will move in and stress me out--> telling me how much more better they are than A. sounds petty but after a while, i really can see what they're offerring is so much better than what i'm getting from A. i'm getting so little from A, yet the others have been giving me constant emotional support, driving me around, taking me out for retail therapy, spoiling me rotten with music and endless chit-chatting in the night. i had quite a few sensational dates already... *sighs* life, ur such a bitch, arent u?

out of the blue, some of the guys whom i became very close over the months in national service and from college, they started trying to cross the line between frens to more-than-frens. then two more guys from my high skewl life came back into the present... both claiming they never really let me go. i mean, come on la! u dun expect me to believe that, would u? CANT U MALES BE SATISFIED WITH A PLATONIC RELATIONSHIP WITH A FEMALE?!

i really care deeply about these guys. and i admit, i'm so tempted to accept the offer from only two of them. i really see the sacrifices both of them have made and i'm so touched. *heart melts* but i'm still going to try and work it out first...

as for the others, cant we just be chummy pals we once were before all this hu-ha came about? muahx.

meh?

my eldest sister and grandfather came over from KL to visit! gosh.. missed them loads la~ luv them to bits! haha! wanted to have lunch with them but i had to go for my tutoring job~ darnit!

now i'm suppose to be studying Business Statistics for my exam tomoro afternoon! argh! i'm not ready yet! i dun think i ever will be ready for an exam actually... heheh!

oh! i went to the annual MidAutumn Festival which is located at FohSang, the chinatown of KK. hahah! it looked exactly like Petaling Street! red lanterns and stalls along the road... was accompanied by college buddy, KS. he's simply the most hilarious fello i've ever met. now, being hilarious does not mean he's a complete idiot. he proved to be very knowledgeable and had quite a compassionate heart. i think that is what most guys lack these days. hahah! i wanted to buy dad a calligraphy painting but o wells, i wasnt very impressed when the sifu said, "wait ar, i'll go find ur surname." so he went to his car and took out a box full of pre-written calligraph pieces of chinese surnames and their meanings! i was thinking = this is not what i'm in for man... i want the piece of the action! i wanna see u write it out! i want LIVE action then i'll buy it! noo~ " and then after ten minutes of digging thru the box, the assistant said, " hehe... dun have wor~" i was dissappointed but he took my number and said he'll call when its done. o wells, better than nuthin. kekekek~ its nice la! i love calligraphy!

i love dinner with good company. xp

semester end blues

here i am trying my very best not to fall asleep typing these words out... " HAPPY 18TH BURFDAY BEN!" da party aint dead just yet~! woOot~! hahah! continue having fun aites? gosh... how many years already? not too long actually... but we've been thru thick n thin enuff for a frenship of twenty years no? i think telekom loves us both! hahahah! sorry about the parcel man... i forgot to jot down ur name! or anyones name! ahhhhhhhhhhh~

yesh... FOUR DOWN AND JUST TWO MORE TO GO! down with hubungan etnik,english,accounts and BIT! arhaha! FREEDOM, HERE I COME! and right after the last paper, Business Statistics(18th sept)! i dun care! i'm going to go off with me buddies to party all day till night! heck! it'll be the last day of the first semester in colllege! hahahah! HISTORICAL EVENT! wheee~ lets go skating peeps! then wad? movies! dinner! clubbing *very very optional!* shopping! wooOoot!

i cant believe first semester is nearly over! ohmigosh... its like, the hectic college life is already a norm and u expect me to stop? wad? a holiday? i dunno man... dunno if i can survive it la! hahahah! three weeks of it?! three weeks of lazing around? ohmygosh... it sounds tooooo good to be true yet... i wanna go to college!

hahaha! honestly... i might moan and bitch about college being way too hectic and stressful plus hating it but unconciously, i'm actually extremely happy in it! happy with the loads of assignments, projects, presentations and extra activities! hmm... lets see wad second semester has in store fer me eh? yumz!

#1 college exam! woOt~

oh shyt.... i just found out that i made a major mistake in my hubungan etnik exam paper! i dun reli know if it is major or minor mistake... but it'll cost me a neat 20 marks! omg! ahhhh! ow noooo! there goes my freeee A paper~! *tooooooot!* o wells. i guess i'll just divert my attention on sumthing that i can still score~

English Language exam paper was orite. i'm being modest. i know. kekeke! though i was not rushing, i completed it in forty minutes after having checked my answer booklet twice! *grins* then i raised my hand discreetly for the second time, the invigilator came and handed me another answer booklet. i just shook my head and whispered "finished." she gave me a reli odd look, took my answer booklet and stood there reading my answer! i was pretty shocked. i was like ELLO?LET ME OUTTA THIS HALL!? in my head but then i just smiled and whispered " may i go out now?" she was smiled and sed " o okay. make sure u close the door and not slam." again i was like "WAD!?"

fine fine... i got outta there and i actually giggled outside the exam hall! so much for panicking in the early morning... wheekekek! then there was this guy whom i'm actually a bit scared of... we call him Panda or 'yi bai hao' (number100) he got out of the exam hall just before me and i was about to walk past him when he asked : "weii~ nie jiang kuai de?(you so fast?)" then i muttered : " hmm. ya. you?" " wo mei you chuo de( i didnt do)" omg...... sweat!

skating hurts la...

its the study week! ahhh! that would mean... exams starts next week! OMG.OMG.OMG! study charlotte STUDY! hahha! right after the microeconomics revision class, Prince tempted me to go to the skating rink at Asia City, rather undecisive i was. Dora agreed to come along and then pop comes Olivia! hahah! i guess i was orite about going right then~

had to drive home first cuz my Wira was blowing hot air instead of cold! Prince and i was like "WTH!?" and Dora innocently asked "why so hot already wan?" and Olivia goes "ya hor?" so funny lar~ switched to the Merc and we all sighed in relief with the cold blasts of air~ got there a bit late so... had lunch first and did a bit of shopping b4 skating.



SKATING HURTS LA! but its really fun, i guess. haha! met a familiar face but i just couldnt remember where i met her from. so when i was skating around, i saw this gurl again who seemed to be having a real hard time reaching the wall from the middle of the rink. helped her then said : " are you from college? " she laughed " no lah~ we met in church ,remember?" then i was like " OWH! i remember! sorry sorry!" then her name popped up - Lily!

so i helped Lily around the rink twice and i fell hard on my butt once when i lost balance trying to pull her up. hahah! Prince was really good, flying around the rink. awww... and he was pretty sweet with the kids - helping them up and teaching them. Olivia was a lil sick so she decided to be the photographer. and when the two hours of skating was up, prince and i got out and found that, Olivia had gone off with my hangbag and car keys?! oh! ' how wonderful '. she didnt bring her handphone and so we sat there waiting for half an hour! she came back with a smile and said, "shopping!" gosh! u shud've seen our faces! just gob-smacked..

i'm still amazed.

this is my first time attending a youth conference in KK. i admit, i was very reluctant to go at first. that is probably bcuz i have such BAAAAAAD experience years ago. the ones where u sit for four straight hours listening to sumthing u already know but cant apply in ur daily life stuff. and not forgetting the one i attended last time that cost me RM75! *see my money fly*

but with great friends like Christy n Fusion pestering/encouraging me to go, i was like : "o please...do i have to? really ah? but its so close to exams! oh man... ok la! ok la!" though i registered and paid two weeks ago, i was still wondering ... shud i go? its a WHOLE day event... can i commit? will i benefit from it? i prayed about it that sunday and still felt unsure.

i often forget that i have already agreed to go. but oddly enuff, there were so many times in the last 2 weeks, frens like Zavier, Oli, Eve, Christy n Fusion will just remind me about it out of the blue! and i'll just say a silent prayer of thanks. STILL, I DIDNT KNOW IF I SHUD GO O NOT. haha!

the first of September started off with Jackie Chan singing Beautiful Myth (direct translation of the chinese title- mei li de shen hua). i woke up and prayed... happy that i'm still alive! hahah! and i prayed for a SIGN from God to help me decide if i shud attend the church event. i went downstairs to do house chores and drove my lil sister to karate class. then while i was driving my dad's mercedez ( iLOVEthiscarrrr) ... an sms from Zavier popped up. i know i shudnt touch my hp when i drive but its habit la. OMG! God really gave me a sign. then Fusion n Christy called me! ohmygoodness.... another sign! "orite Daddy in heaven,i believe u! i'm going! i'm going!" so yeah, i took a bath, had a cuppa and drove off to pick the couple to church.

it was THE most enlightening experience. this is an understatement. really. it was so impactful in my life and i bet everyone else was touched by His words! for the first time, the problems i faced for such a long time are answered. the questions that i've been asking myself for years and too embarrassed to ask others is answered. after attending so many talks, i'm so thankful of this one that i attended. yes, i benefited sooo much from it. i committed myself to it. and i gained more knowledge and understanding of being a child of God.

and the pastor--> Jaeson Ma (kewl name eh?) wasnt ur typical pastor. really young, and is it okay to say he's really cute? thank goodness it was in english!!! hahaha! or i would be laughing at the wrong things. yes... the chinese here is so.... classy. really! its super high class (really advanced level of mandarin! most of the time in normal mandarin worship sessions, i wud look a bit like this @.@ ) so THANK YOU, GOD! its in english!

pastor Jaeson was extremely animated in words and actions. the translator was a senior church member who is rather modest and thoughwas uncomfortable abt translating some words into chinese such as pornography , he sed unapproriate books and masturbation, he sed do it urself. funny man! the older fello soon loosened up and imitated the voice n action of the younger ABC (american born chinese) pastor.

the message was clear n straight to the point. they touched on topics and issues of the NOW generation. like i sed, the word of God cudnt haven been presented any better. that was rock solid 6-star!

worship was fab from three different churches. my favourite part. i think i'm the happiest when it comes to music. gosh... i feel like learning the drums n guitar again la! ahhhh! John! Lily! where art thou!? no i dowan to stick to just organ n singing! haha! please dun say u've given up on me! hahaha! peace ^^V ---> pastor Jaeson Ma style

the movie Ratatouille was really funny! hahah! not the best as it was a bit long-winded at parts and having a really typical storyline. but it was hilarious. i wud prob give it a 3 and a half outta 5.

moving on~ i know i'm a bit late but heck, bcuz i'm Malaysian, MERDEKA!!! spent the earlier part of the dining and ...believe it or not! playing monopoly! with my parents and lil sister! haha! then we got out of the house just before midnight and watched the fireworks just outside the padang merdeka! WHOA~ the sound was really frightening la~ everyone else was also flinching everytime a firework was set off. and then we would all go "...... WAAAA" as we watch the firework display. JUST as the show ended... its simply amazing! u see throngs of people running and some walking briskly to their cars from the field towards us who are on the shoulders of the main road. trying to get away before the traffic jam starts! i started laughing and then the other families on the back of their own cars started laughing. great fun to share laughter , no?

then the very next day, i spent the whole day sms-ing n calling my old NS frens and teachers. o gosh.. it was so fun talking to them again! sighs... miss them. i spoke to one of my classroom teachers and had a blast for almost an hour! hahah! planning to visit them in johor this december with some of the other NS trainees! woot!